just got home not too long ago.. school was a fucking bore. so many free periods today and i spent them sleeping.. whats new?!..

met wai after school. for lunch, we had cup noodles, pao, and the kfc's colonel burger. haha. cheapos. and of cos fag at the back of cine. our favourite fagging area. lol. we called jacob then that stupid idiot talked so much rubbish on the phone.. he was slanging and saying all sorts of nonsense. haha. then called maomao. hahah. stupid. i pretended to be wai but he said my voice just says it all that its me. sheesh. i met nana!!! haha. that silly girl made me and wai laugh so so so much!!! had fun. hee. bitching and all!! haha. and yes as nana said, everyone seems to be drifting apart. sigh. changes. the only thing constant in life is changes can. sighh. met cat and kelly. this fucking smss girl. i think her name is siti or sth. fucking diao-ed wai and i. motherfuckingcheebye. wanted to go scold her then couldnt find her. cheebye. then met pam and cheryl too. haha. was so boring so we came home. wai took the same bus with me. we were bitching about this lady with a rose slipper next to us. haha.

enough said.. haha. i miss you!!

school was ugh. boring. had like 6 periods of science. ( read, 2 periods each of chemistry and biology AND biology remedial ) almost died. haha. today i ate healthy food in school! orange juice and a slice of watermelon. time i lose weight man.

after school, met wai at taka. went to kfc to eat the value meal thingy. haha. feeling like a total cheapo now. went down to b3. AGAIN. whats new. we were laughing over.. -ahem ahem- tai yang. inside joke. hees. then roy came over.. then we headed over to fareast to meet.. *takes in a deep breath.. azhar, sam, ferdian, yuuki, nelson, alex and.. afew others whos name im totally clueless about. we sat there while they ate. went to the bridge while everyone fagged as usual. oh.. there's this damn nice fag. nicotine level quite high.. japan's fag. damn nice! less than a stick then will get seh. nice packaging too. its called mi-ne or something i thinkk.

shared a cab back with yuuki and azhar. stupid idiot. talking so much crap on the cab. sheesh. here i am back home.. hrrm.. i think xianxin in hollandvillage is cute. haha. hollandvillage.. hrrms, brings back lots of memories.. so many things happened there.. whether its with school friends or the flower gang. man.. memories.. tsk tsk.

enough said..

just got home not too long ago. school was fucking fucking boring i swear.
had like 4 periods of english today. cos the stupid social studies teacher was on course. then my english teacher was angry with us. so.. she scolded the whole class. and decided to sit at her table for 4 periods doing nothing. she just gave us some worksheets. i completed the worksheets in 1 period and spent the rest of the 3 periods sleeping!! haha.

met wai after school at taka. was so fucking boring just the 2 of us. so we went to b3 to gossip and fag. hahaha. then we were making crude jokes at the b3's toilet. hahaha. roamed around heeren. we were at the big mirror there telling each other our "love" secrets.. hahaha. not like i love anyone now. but.. hahahhaa. the stupid crush i had on the stupid idioit on saturday and wai.. -ahem ahem-. hahahha. enough said. met catherine and kelly. was about the cross the road then we saw steffi and caroline. haha. saw li ang and li ping at cine!! been ages since i saw them!! haha. then saw aj too.. today was supposed to be a day without us meeting lidokidz people at all. then we had to see reonald, tony and albert at bk. sheesh. but then again.. i see afew of them in school everyday. but out of point..

was so bored so i took 77 with wai to holland to take 75 home! and being the kiasu me, i asked her to go get a seat for me. that silly girl ran up the bus and not only did she not get a seat when it was our favourite place, she just RAN up the bus without tapping her ez-link card and the bus driver had to shout at her to tap her card. was so fucking funny both of us laughed non stop for quite some time till our jaws hurt. hahaha. *ouch.

okay.. im off to watch hollandvillage.. jingjing is so pretty!!

you know what? im fucking afraid of commitment. this word is.. so fucking strong. everytime im about to commit myself to something, i will.. back off. becos i guess im not ready for the heavy responsiblilties that comes along with.. commitment. if i continue this way, im going nowhere. and i mean.. nowhere.

just had my dinner. oh man.. like as though im not fat enough.
school was boring. as in fucking fucking boring. i slept for like two and a half hours can?!

met catherine at rivervalley after school. ate at boontongkee.. slacked around the area.. fagged.. bitched. haha. then headed to town.. met azhar and cherryl. then wai came.. they were making fun of me cos of the things that happened on saturday night. and they were making stories. ugh! hrrrms. cat went to see a doctor and yuuki came.. haha. azhar and cherryl went to watch a movie so i was left with yuuki and wai. so fucking boring. we were deciding what to do while hanging out at lido. then everyone else came back.. kelly came. slacked at err, lido's delifrance that area.. stupid azhar talk so much crap. irritating. they were playing around with the tampon in my bag. fucking embarrassing i swear. stupid idiots. then jacob and vincent came.. more teasing. stupid assholes. we were so bored so we went up to look for ferdian, sam and alex.. i think. yar. then went to lido's staircase to fag. and talk rubbish. then they guys were imitating sissys sparing.. (spell?) came outta the staircase and then so many other people came.. wow.

actually its kinda dumb. i know im mixing with the wrong group of people. but i dont know why i just go out with them at times and do stupid things. ugh. where's my self discipline?! ugh. i hate her! fucking irritating bitch.

my mom is now making fucking crude comments on how a self proclaimed christian like me can ever be so cheap. how many times must i tell her that it was only for a semi formal event. and then if im called cheap, im sure my family plays a big part too. my family is totally screwed up. trust me on this. and i mean totally. fucking fucked up. my mom thinks that i sleep around with indonesian guys cos sometimes i just tell her that i go out with my schoolmates. and she fucking thinks that i dont study at all. yes maybe im not putting in enough effort. but look, i got first in class for my mid years. so will she just shut her trap?

oh, have i ever mentioned that my sis and my mom thinks that these are the next 3 things i will do. its really fucking insulting to think that your own sister and your own mom thinks so lowly of you.
1) becoming a full pledged lesbian.
2) coming home with a guy to announce that im pregnant.
3) getting into a girls home for dealing with drugs.

thats like.. such a fucking compliment isnt it. and the part about becoming a full pledged lesbian and coming home with a guy is a little contradicting isnt it. so am i supposed to remain straight.. or should i be a lesbian?

okay. this is a totally new blog. actually the things that you people have been reading in my old blog, (daphhhh.blogspot.com) arent really all the truth. many of them are.. but the tamed down version. cos i found out that my sister actually reads my blog. like what the hell right? ugh. dont know how she got the url either.

yesterday was the much awaited k'aoz party. left the house kinda early.. wai came up the bus i was on and we headed to cat's house. went there.. changed and all. oh, i wore this halter top that has only strings behind with this pants and heels. took a cab down to mandarin hotel to get the make up and hair done. saw colin, vernon and rachel in cine. talked for awhile then i left..

the party was alright.. i kinda got drunk. drank vodka pepsi and some other shit la. total i think i drank 3 shots and like almost 1jug of some stupid drink. didnt know what i was doing. only remember bits and pieces. the food sucks. and the placed looked a little like chinatown. lol. during the disco session thingy, i remember vaugely dancing with wai and cat. then i danced with this total stranger. if im not wrong he said his name is brian. haha. but with my heels he was shorter than me. havent seen him before. so dont think he is part of the lidokidz people or sth. haha. was dancing with him then wai and cat pulled me away to get me away from the dance floor. sheesh. then we went out by the pool to drink somemore! haha. then roy, wai, ken and i were playing this passing of ice game. haha. ken and i tried to pass two cubes of ice at a time. managed to do that a couple of times.. haha.

the rest was a little blur. was drunk. so was wai. and i think i did things that i shouldnt have. ( no no, not sex ) ugh. gross. anyway. i lost my whole packet of fag. what the hell. my dunhill menthol lights. i was left with like 10 sticks i think. ugh. woke up feeling a little giddy. head was spinning. then stupid roy, jacob, vincent, ferdian, and sam were talking so much crap to me i was so irritated. we went down to the boys room for awhile. fucking all the guys were in there. then only cat wai and i were the only girls. and they were so fucking irritating. so we left to go to the girls room where the super drunk girls were fast asleep. then we met up with allllll the people to go to newton circus. didnt even eat much. infact, i didnt even eat there at all. proceeded to go to cat's house. woke up at 2. -yawns- headed home.

and guess what? when i came home. it turned out that my mom saw me yesterday. dressed till so fucking indecent as she described. so now im officially grounded. whats new? im always grounded. ugh. what the fuck. no more church even. oh. btw, do you know that its about 100 days to the O levels. fucking scary. i've gotta start mugging.